Telephone Tag With Professionals

I'm getting tired. My medication is not working, and I'm sick of playing phone tag with the professionals. I call every day no answer, and I'm getting tired of leaving desperate voice messages. No professional wants to deal with me. My mental health situation is too complicated, and is "above their pay grade". I know this, I've been told this many times before. I keep waiting for appointments that never come. Or get put on wait lists that are so long you're not even sure what state you'll be in when it finally comes time. When they do call, it's a 3-minute phone call, and nothing gets resolved; I just get put on more medication to keep me quiet. Places outside of Lambton County won't take me, and I need help. I got referred to someplace else, and I can't get a hold of the specialist, no matter how hard I try, or even my parents try. We're running out of options. The psychiatrist won't help me anymore; he says he's done prescribing medication, and he no longer knows what to do with me. The haziness of each day is starting to get to me. I can't remember the details of where I'm going or who I'm with. I can't tell you what street they live on or how to get there, I can't pay attention, I'm in a constant fog. Days are blending together. I'm not sure how much more of this I can take. I desperately need off of these drugs and onto new ones. It's been 6 months of constant medication changes and 10+ years of experiencing the same thing. My body is slowly deteriorating; I can feel it. It's hard doing my job because these meds make me sound drunk, and recording voice-overs while like that is not an easy thing. You have to focus on every syllable and break down every word. This is not a life a 27-year-old should be living. But hey, at least I made it past the 27 club.