Making Friends as an Adult is Hard

Making friends as an adult it hard and frustrating. In high school you have all these other people around that you can match with or choose not to be friends with. They even have extra curriculars for people with similar interests to get together. We don't have that as adults or at least as often as I may need. I haven't had a best friend since I was in my early early twenties and I haven't had any close friends since... I'm almost 28 and I have no one I can rely on to come hangout or go to the beach with me. I feel like I have no one I can truly call. People are so flaky on social media. One minutes they say they pick you up and the next you've been sitting there waiting for hours all dolled up but with no where to go. 

Getting ditched truly sucks and is a very lonely feeling. I wish I could snap my fingers and make a friend. How easy would that be? But as we all know life is not that easy. I would love to have someone who could come over and just talk about nothing with me for endless hours. Maybe even take a look through my every growing makeup collection. 

Everyone is busy and has their own lives, life happens, i get it. But its been a lonely 8 years. The people I get along best with don't want to leave the house. Why is it so complicated to make a friend? I reach out and get no reply or a 'sure let's do something' and the other side never follows through. I'm left sitting on the staircase waiting for my ride, which never comes. I've passed the hardest moments alone while everyone believed I was fine. Loneliness is my worst enemy, but in end he's usually my only friend. I'm not alone. I'm lonely its different. I break my own heart hoping people will be as attached to me as I am them. I've turned people into homes and ended up homeless. In the end I've learned how to be strong alone. Loneliness is the absence of connection, not company. Connecting with people is truly an important thing and I lack connection. 

"A season of loneliness and isolation is when the caterpillar gets its wings. Remember that next time you feel alone" - Mandy Hale