To be sober
To drug or not to drug
To be sober in this day and age is a crazy thing. Everyone looks at you like you have 3 heads.
As of my sobriety date, I am 5 years and 1 month sober from hard drugs.
It’s a crazy feeling walking into an bar and ordering a diet ginger ale while all your friends are plastered around you. It’s weird going to a party and playing beer pong and drinking only water. I did learn some tricks of the trade along the way, like to always keep glass in my hand or always chew gum. Keep your mouth and brain busy. You’ll think about drugging less.
Surround yourself with the right social group. Ones who won’t pressure you into having one more drink. The right friends will stick around and support you on your journey to sobriety. They will even cheer you on and celebrate your milestones with you! People like that do exist. Real friends do exist. They may come and go and they may be hard to find but the right ones will come in and change your life for the better.
During the beginning my progress was slow, I became overwhelmed with the fact that I was no longer allowed to participate in these social events, it saddened me that I needed to rely on drugs to have fun. I had lost the true meaning of fun. So I decided to became the “mom” of the group. I took on a different role. I was no longer the addict that needed taking care of. I became the“mom” to distract myself from what was going on right in front of me. I made sure everyone had water, I tucked them in at night, found their phones or their glasses and put them beside their sleeping place for when they woke up. I knew what it was like to be on the other side. The least I could do now was help.
It took me about till year 3 to be fully comfortable around friends and family drinking in front of me. I kept quiet and to myself, I didn’t want to bring attention to the fact that I was hurting for one too. I would leave the room or look away, I just felt awkward and uncomfortable in my own skin and I didn’t want that to show.
Year 4 was the year I let everything go. Nothing bothered me anymore the way it used to. Drugs did not control my mind or my every waking thought. People lived theirs lives and I lived mine. No is a powerful word and I used it often at social gatherings. There some sort of superpower in staying sober your mind is so sharp and your able to think so clearly.
Year 5 I never thought I would be going back to school for the job of my dreams or have such a good relationship with my family. I wouldn’t change my journey for any others. STAY SOBER STAY SAFE. Your family wants you alive.
Well said!!!❤️
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